This isn’t a review of the concert… but I went to a Third Eye Blind show tonight at Toad’s Place in New Heaven, Connecticut. It was packed, and I was stuck by the juice bar, which is all the way in the back of the place. I tried to find the courage to talk to the girl who works there, but with the music blaring, customers filtering in and out… yeah, I ended up talking to her. I said, “Hi…… can I have a raspberry snapple?” and, “Would you hate me if I threw this bottle in your garbage?”

Yeah. That’s what I said.

What has this year’s worth of psychology studying taught me? I have an Avoidant Personality type (not quite disordered), in which I desire social connections with others, and want human interaction, but am fearful of rejection and avoid social situations in which rejection is uncertain. It’s not absolute, I’ve talked to a number of people in college, but mostly with girls I actually find attractive, I get nervous and shaky.

So, in short… fuck.

I’m going to hopefully see Alkaline Trio in June. I’m hoping she’ll be there again, but hey, the chances of that are probably not very good. If not, that’s okay. I don’t know her. I know nothing about her. She probably isn’t the girl of my dreams, but not knowing does hurt.

Maybe I’ll see her again. Maybe not. Either way, life goes on.